New Found Glory

   Two, months ago I went and spent two weeks in orange county.  I was not suppost to be there for that long. Originally, just a few days to do some work for my brother.

   I met up with an old buddy from childhood. Who, I had not seen in 8 years or more. We had a crazy, fun, packed evening of letting loose and not having a care in the world.  That preluded me to stay in orange county for two weeks. Not meaning to stay there for two weeks, maybe just a few extra days than originally planned. Day after day, we did things that didn't require money. We, did so many things that were simple. That I had lost and thought were not fun anymore in my life.  Not having a care in the world while doing these activities.

   I came home after those two weeks with my eye's wide opened to A "New Found Glory" in my life. I forgot, the things of the past that I so loved and enjoyed to do. I was losing myself before this time. Not sure where life was taking me. Wondering why I wasn't finding joy in the events life had given me.  Just Wandering in my thoughts. Creating anxieties for myself because I lost myself.

   losing myself was the hardest thing ever. Fear, doubt, paranoia, sadness, confusion, un-satisfied, and scaredness entered into my life. At time's wanting to give up. I thought moving away would take away my problems. Made them worse and enflamed the problem. I was trying to run away and avoid the issue. Thinking that they would just magically disappear.

   conclusion:  Stay true to yourself. Never give up on things that you love to enjoy. Remember who you were as a child and how those time's shaped you. If you see yourself deviating from that path. Stop and turn around. Don't get lost and lose yourself as I did. So, I found myself by enjoying the things of the past. Not, reverting to the past. Remembering how the past defined my character and the joy's of life.   Taking the shape of the past and molding it to the myself now and for the future.

   final thought:  Letting life taking over you and losing yourself. I say NOT!! Take and grab ahold of your life. As, I have done. I truly believe that we as humans our the designer of our futures here on earth.